ADDICTED TO A DRUG

SOMETIMES ITS LIKE SOMETHING SOMEONE SAID JUST EXPLAINS HOW U FEEL ABOUT A PARTICULAR THING,MAYBE EVEN BETTER.

SOMETIMES SOMETHING U WANNA SAY IS SO HARD TO EXPRESS THAT U JUST CANT PUT TOGETHER THE WORDS AND FORM A SENTENCE.

SOMETHING WHICH COMES DIRECTLY FROM THE DEPTHS OF ONES HEART.

DONT U GET SO FRUSTERATED WHEN U KNOW HOW U FEEL ABOUT SOMETHING OR RATHER SOMEONE,AND U JUST WANNA GO ON THE ROOF TOPS AND SHOUT THOSE FEELINGS OUT TO THE WORLD BUT U JUST CANT FIND UR VOICE.EVEYTIME THAT SOMEONE COMES IN FRONT OF U U FEEL AS IF U JUST STOPPED BREATHING,THAT UR HEART JUST JUMPED A BEAT AND MAYBE AS IF UL BE GETTING AN HEART ATTACK ANY MOMENT,WHEN U FEEL STUPID BECAUSE THE ONLY THING U R ABLE TO DO IS SMILE AND U JUST CANT STOP SMILING.

BEEN THERE? DONE THAT? MAYBE YES MAYBE NOT.

I FEEL THIS WHENEVR I HEAR THAT SONG. FEELS AS IF THAT COMPOSER KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I FELT. THOSE EMOTINS THAT FLOW MAKE ME CONSCIOUS OF MY BEING,FEEL LIKE HEARING OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AS IF THE BATTERIES SHOULD GO DOWN,THE VOLUME FULL,THE ONLY THING I HEAR R THOSE LYRICS AND NOTHING ELSE NOT EVEN THE SOUND OF MY HEART BEATING OR MY BREATH SO UNEVEN GOING UP AND DOWN AS IF THE SONG CONTROLS MY BEING ALIVE. AS IF THIS SONG WERE THE MEANING TO MY EXISTENCE.....!!!

DONT U FEEL LIKE SAYING THAT "DUDE I CANT EXPLAIN WWHAT I FEEL FOR U BUT U BETTER GO HEAR THIS SONG...MAYBE ITLL HELP."

HEHEHEH MAYBE THATS STUPID BUT THEN NOT EVERYTHING WAS MEANT TO BE PERFECT.

love...never fails to express.

MORE THE FAT...MORE THE BEAUTY...!!!

its august...and she is overweight...obese would be a better word....she stood on that stupid weight machine yet again...just like every morning...! she hoped it would show a bit less...but nope...it was still there stuck at the point she left yesterday...!! she ran off to the gym halfheartedly that it would be of no use...!! she followed her super consious diet...hardly hate outside....did regular exercise...but wht do u know...the weight machine just wouldnt budge...!!
she was beautiful...even prettier than the other girls in her class....just because of her extra weight she would be the center of many a jokes...she had gotten used to not showing her feelings in public but deep inside...it hurt her that no matter wht she did....it was of no use...she conforted herself by saying"god made u this way so that u could be special in some other way....does beauty really matter that much? u are beautiful..and u know it...so let the rest just fuck off...!!" she felt better whenever she told herself that she was beautiful but the one thing she wanted the most was someone else telling her that she was beautiful...someone who would notice her features below all the layers of fat.
every time she sat for dinner after a hard day..her mother would keep on saying.."dont eat much dont eat much....u r getting fatter and fatter..." it hurt her every time she took a bite...!! she asked herself.."is it so necessary to be thin and pretty?" she knew the exact reason why her mother pushed her to weight....so that they wont have any problem finding her a suitable match...!!
it irritated her so much...though she was putting all her efforts....but then....why was it so necessary to be thin? dont fat people have hearts? why r they considered less beautiful? are they ugly by heart? are they mean? no...no...no....no...!! they r mere people...with the same feelings...and the same desires...!!
she had decided to loose weight as soon as possible and she was doing her bit in whatever way she could do...!! but then why??? for a match??? nope.... just to prove that even fat people are beautiful...!!
so i hereby invite all the beautiful people...weather fat or thin....to join hands and show to the world that beauty lies within ourselves and not on our looks...!!

BEAUTY IS A FACTOR LINKED WITH THE HEART AND NOT THE FACE...!! A BEAUTIFUL PERSON IS THE OUTCOME OF A MUCH BEAUTIFUL HEART...!!!

RAIN-II

drip drip drip.....the drops falling through the holes in the worn out ceiling caught her attention...she decided to fix it.maybe next week when the rain slows down she will bring someone to repair it.she again tried concentrating on what she was doing....she was trying to write an article about the recent pandemic of swine flu....drip drip drip...the noise was disturbing her...she couldnt concentrate...finally she got up...went to the kitchen...and decided to make herself a strong cup of tea...! as the water began to warm up her attention was caught by a pair of siblings playing by the stream newly created by the rain...they were making a boat,she guessed.....she used to do that when she was a kid.splash splash...the kids played in the rain...so nice it would have been if we could have gone back to those days....it would have been so much easier...no worries....no deadlines....no responsiblities....only innocent hearts playing till they get dirty in the mud.....i wish i could go out and play in the rain without having to think wht the people would think...!
our life is always governed not by our mind but somewht by the people we live around....even to think abt doing something different makes us think abt their reaction...were they so important? y cant we live our lives according to our wish? y cant we do whatever we want to do..whever we want to do...? y do we always have to think abt the consiquences?everytime we step out of the door, we see to it that we r perfect in every way possible.y cant we just let go of everything we think abt and just do what comes to our heart...just for one day? i wsih i could create such a world where i was allowed to get up when i wanted to and not according to the time of my office...i wish i could wear whatever i felt like and was not restricted by the dos and donts of society.....i wish everyone just lived their life for one day and not poke their noses into each others lives...!!!
childhood never comes again...i remember my dad saying...so dont waste ur time and enjoy as much as possible...he was so right..i wish i could go back to those days where i could go home with bruised knees....and muddy clothes....i wish i could pick flowers from my neighbors garden and give them as a token of love to my mom...i wish i could still fight with mom for that ice gola....i wish i could go out in the rain...get all wet...and come home with muddy shoes.....i wish i could do all those things without ever having to twice.....!!!
oh rain...is there any way i could get all those days back????