Saturday, September 10, 2011

GIVE ME SOME SUNSHINE... GIVE ME SOME RAIN

just a few days ago i yearned for a drop of rain and now it seems exactly the opposite.... now i yearn more for the warmth of the sun. is it human nature to never be satisfied with what they have or am i going totally out of my mind. My nights come and go and i dont know when i fall asleep with the music of the rain being heard in the background...rain makes so many types of sounds.. when it fall on the leaves, on the wet mud, on tar, on the cement tops.. and yet different from the one it makes on the rooftops.... the crickets keep singing all night long..as if humming a lullaby for me. they say nature is at its best in the monsoons but i say its at its worst too. the grrens tree tops and the rainbows and the clouds do seems a welcome sight for some time but as the rains keeps on pouring... it becomes a headache even to step outside...the mud... the rain...everything.


 the sun seems a better option to me..... the warmth... the light.... the vitamin d......oh i would kill for some of that now.



Tuesday, April 19, 2011

IN LOVE WITH THE RAIN-II

It gets cloudy everday here. and the weather keeps on getting hotter... humidity keeps rising...!!! no one can sit still in a room without a fan(fan is of no use actually bcz the air it gives is also hot) or a cooler..(aaa much better). sometimes the thot of a quick shower comes in my mind but the water running from the taps is also hot... oh ma god... how do i beat the heat???
the clouds just come and go,bringing hopes to many that it'll pour..but no use.. they just stand there in the sky as we get wet with sweat staring up at the sky. sometimes the thot runs through my eyes...what if i could fly.. i would fly up to the clouds and prick a needle in them brusting them open,drneching myself with the healing liquid.but there are a lot of if's in life and not all are worth it. if only i could carry a AC with me wherever i went...feel like smaking the ppl who made dermi cool"thanda thanda cool cool"..arre wht thanda... just keeps on getting worse... imagine urself in a room packed with ppl... and the electricity decides to take a lunch break for an hour or two...ohhhh... that feeling... feel like killing someone. :(
it getting worser and worser day in day out...and they say the summer is yet to begin.......!!!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

"IN LOVE WITH THE RAIN "



The rain was showering on my city now and then... it was mid april and the heat was totally intolerable...she thot "i hate it when its sunny :( it gets all sweaty and wet. yucckkk, i hate the heat." how she quenched for a dark cloud to cum and pour some drops on her...a cool breeze to play with her hair...the thunder in her heart whenver she thot abt this....and the ligtening that flashed in her eyes...she loved the rain...everything about the rain....she was a rain person.
she grew up in a wet place with tropical atmosphere most of the year,and now in the city, she hated the sun so hard she could curse it.she just loved the view that the dark clouds brought with them...she felt she belonged to them,she wanted to be in some place where she would never miss this weather. the cool winds...the strong currents..the rain lashing on the roofs...the rhyme they make when they dance on the tin roofs in the village...the birds chirping when they splash around in the puddles..the kids running around...the aroma that the earth gives out(nothing like that,i must say)..and oh yes... how can i forget the best part.. the 7 colours of the sky... the rainbow...the most beautiful scene god ever created.
she always remembered one thing from the rain...whenever it used to rain...she and her dad used to go on a hill...and sit there till the rain subsided, just to see a wonderful view,as the clouds passed away and the sun peeped out from the dark blanket,it gave out a rainbow. the birds flew in all directions. the cool breeze swept pass her hair and dried off the water,the leaves soaked in pearls looked so beautiful. nature was at its best when it rained.and she could never find anything as beautiful as that view. wow. breathtaking.
she missed it in this crowded city.
she was in love with her season. the rainy season. the season for love to triumph. the season of new life.
she was in love with life.

Friday, October 22, 2010

FRIENDSHIP OR LOVE....???





HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THROUGH A PHASE WHERE U WERE ACTUALLY CONFUSED ABOUT THE FEELINGS YOU HAVE FOR A CERTAIN PERSON...???
its kinda funny to think about it that way because i feel i know him since ages...he is technically my best friend,but the problem started when i started changing my view of looking towards him. maybe he changed too...but he never let me know. we shared everything,ups and downs,our dabba,everything...there was nothing in my life that he didn't know about and the same goes about me. we were addicted to each others company. we were always together,and when we weren't...our messages kept going to and fro.we were so much a part of each other that many thought we were in love.don't know when i gave that thought a thought.... but here's the truth.... i fell in love with my best friend. i don't know weather thats right or not but my feelings changed gradually and i never knew about it until one day when we had a fight.
i still remember that day. he never gave me a proper reason.. only said"this relation is not worth the pain"...and that was the last i heard from him. hasn't called me or messaged me since a month now. but i already feel its been decades since i have heard his voice,his breath,my name sounded so beautiful when he took it. my day started with him and ended with him... and now life seems so miserable and dull when he is not around. i used to love the way he used to look at me..play with my hair...hold my arm while crossing the road(like a kid)...the way he used to fight off guys for me...and talk abt his latest crush...the way he used to get pissed on me when i was late for a movie(come on...its just a movie) and sometimes i used to do it on purpose..just to get his attention.his anger..his look... OH that look killed me every single time.
but now... it feels he doesn't care as much as he used to...how could he live for a month when i was dying to see him,hear him,feel him every single moment of every single day...??
did he find another bestfriend??
why?? doesn't he miss being with me? fighting,teasing? everything.
i know i do....!!! it just hurts to not know what he feels about me.
was i wrong about him all this while? did he never feel that way about me?? was i wrong to expect so much... to expect that he'll be around whenever i needed him...?? is there no way that i could tell him how much i miss him...?? how much i love him...maybe even i don't know what i really feel about my best friend. but i really wish he was here.... bcz he would know what i felt.

Monday, August 30, 2010

ADDICTED TO A DRUG







SOMETIMES ITS LIKE SOMETHING SOMEONE SAID JUST EXPLAINS HOW U FEEL ABOUT A PARTICULAR THING,MAYBE EVEN BETTER.




SOMETIMES SOMETHING U WANNA SAY IS SO HARD TO EXPRESS THAT U JUST CANT PUT TOGETHER THE WORDS AND FORM A SENTENCE.




SOMETHING WHICH COMES DIRECTLY FROM THE DEPTHS OF ONES HEART.




DONT U GET SO FRUSTERATED WHEN U KNOW HOW U FEEL ABOUT SOMETHING OR RATHER SOMEONE,AND U JUST WANNA GO ON THE ROOF TOPS AND SHOUT THOSE FEELINGS OUT TO THE WORLD BUT U JUST CANT FIND UR VOICE.EVEYTIME THAT SOMEONE COMES IN FRONT OF U U FEEL AS IF U JUST STOPPED BREATHING,THAT UR HEART JUST JUMPED A BEAT AND MAYBE AS IF UL BE GETTING AN HEART ATTACK ANY MOMENT,WHEN U FEEL STUPID BECAUSE THE ONLY THING U R ABLE TO DO IS SMILE AND U JUST CANT STOP SMILING.




BEEN THERE? DONE THAT? MAYBE YES MAYBE NOT.




I FEEL THIS WHENEVR I HEAR THAT SONG. FEELS AS IF THAT COMPOSER KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I FELT. THOSE EMOTINS THAT FLOW MAKE ME CONSCIOUS OF MY BEING,FEEL LIKE HEARING OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AS IF THE BATTERIES SHOULD GO DOWN,THE VOLUME FULL,THE ONLY THING I HEAR R THOSE LYRICS AND NOTHING ELSE NOT EVEN THE SOUND OF MY HEART BEATING OR MY BREATH SO UNEVEN GOING UP AND DOWN AS IF THE SONG CONTROLS MY BEING ALIVE. AS IF THIS SONG WERE THE MEANING TO MY EXISTENCE.....!!!




DONT U FEEL LIKE SAYING THAT "DUDE I CANT EXPLAIN WWHAT I FEEL FOR U BUT U BETTER GO HEAR THIS SONG...MAYBE ITLL HELP."




HEHEHEH MAYBE THATS STUPID BUT THEN NOT EVERYTHING WAS MEANT TO BE PERFECT.



Saturday, August 7, 2010

MORE THE FAT...MORE THE BEAUTY...!!!

its august...and she is overweight...obese would be a better word....she stood on that stupid weight machine yet again...just like every morning...! she hoped it would show a bit less...but nope...it was still there stuck at the point she left yesterday...!! she ran off to the gym halfheartedly that it would be of no use...!! she followed her super consious diet...hardly hate outside....did regular exercise...but wht do u know...the weight machine just wouldnt budge...!!
she was beautiful...even prettier than the other girls in her class....just because of her extra weight she would be the center of many a jokes...she had gotten used to not showing her feelings in public but deep inside...it hurt her that no matter wht she did....it was of no use...she conforted herself by saying"god made u this way so that u could be special in some other way....does beauty really matter that much? u are beautiful..and u know it...so let the rest just fuck off...!!" she felt better whenever she told herself that she was beautiful but the one thing she wanted the most was someone else telling her that she was beautiful...someone who would notice her features below all the layers of fat.
every time she sat for dinner after a hard day..her mother would keep on saying.."dont eat much dont eat much....u r getting fatter and fatter..." it hurt her every time she took a bite...!! she asked herself.."is it so necessary to be thin and pretty?" she knew the exact reason why her mother pushed her to weight....so that they wont have any problem finding her a suitable match...!!
it irritated her so much...though she was putting all her efforts....but then....why was it so necessary to be thin? dont fat people have hearts? why r they considered less beautiful? are they ugly by heart? are they mean? no...no...no....no...!! they r mere people...with the same feelings...and the same desires...!!
she had decided to loose weight as soon as possible and she was doing her bit in whatever way she could do...!! but then why??? for a match??? nope.... just to prove that even fat people are beautiful...!!
so i hereby invite all the beautiful people...weather fat or thin....to join hands and show to the world that beauty lies within ourselves and not on our looks...!!

BEAUTY IS A FACTOR LINKED WITH THE HEART AND NOT THE FACE...!! A BEAUTIFUL PERSON IS THE OUTCOME OF A MUCH BEAUTIFUL HEART...!!!